Fallon and Ameerah have been over a lot, and I have been actively doing things. But it still just feels so lonely.
I haven't had the chance to sleep in my own bed yet. I've been sleeping on floors, in sleeping bags, or a mattress unknown to my shape. And I think my futon misses my lengthy sprawled body on it to keep it company.
I think my floor misses me laying on it to pass time. I think my drawers miss being shuffled through. I think my blinds miss being opened and closed, I think my mirror misses my face.
"Hello face, have you come to look at me again and see your beauty?"
No, Not really.
I'm being unfair to myself truthfully, I haven't yet rested and let my body adjust and be lonesome for a bit.
I think I'm trying to conceal the fact that if I keep my mind busy with company, and if I don't pay attention to my heart, that everything will be okay.
How unfair, you're not being very kind to yourself.
Just take a break.
I'm merely a lonely soul just waiting for my other half to come make me whole.
Why is that supposed to make me feel better?
Doesn't that just sound stupid?
I should be content with myself right?
Yeah..... I'm not really.
I'm only dreaming, I wish I could wake up.
I don't have much creative juices flowing. None of these words that I pour out sound too poetic.
But I'm so inspired.
Adam Young, please share with me how you stay optimistic?
You are the most influential person I think I've ever heard of.
Is my favorite band in the World.