What are you doing to yourself, you precious child?
You promised to never be that way again. But you're making excuses for yourself that have no justification that could ever make it right.
Poor creature, your beauty is being tainted by the dirt if the world, by such easily seen sin.
Be careful little eyes for your vision may never erase what you wish to unsee. Be careful little heart because you're taking a hard beating from the wrong side of your desire.
God I need you in such a dark place because I'm straying from light due to fear.
Prayer and solitude with God is what I need more than ever.